I didn't just used to love before ...i used to fall in love before. I was Carefree about how hard i fell and even how far i fell, i was just in love with the Fall. I fell in love with the first kiss...i fell in love with the first smile...i fell in love with the first phone conversation. I was a classic sucka for love ass nigga ,but that was then ,this is me now. This is who i have become over the last 10 years of my life and i would like to share with you why.
I was raised in a single-parent home by my mother,and along with my two sisters,we struggled everyday. I learned the greatest thing a man could ever learn from woman...how to love a woman and i was good at it for a while. I was being molded into the perfect man by my Mother,not intentionally, she had a profoundly indirect impact on my ability to communicate with women. She dated scoundrels and Convicts...Pedophiles and Pimps...Drug dealers and Drug Addicts and not to mention the Alcoholic woman beater ,that was my Father. I had to learn about manhood from a man whose face i wouldn't even recognize today. My Memory of him is hidden behind 24 years of alcohol and purpose. You see , i am a strong believer that people enter your life and contribute what they were meant to contribute and then they are gone. I think that if you don't remember a person's name it isn't that they weren't important at the time ..it means that they aren't important at this time of your life. My Father...the man whom met my mom and Fat-Her with child is absolutely the most important man that i ever met in my life,because if i never met him, i wouldn't alive. However, my Dad is somewhere in Norman, Oklahoma on an Native -American Reservation looking at the Hundreds of photos' of me and him saying i remember when.....
O Well! back to me and who i used to be ! I have honestly been in Love a Total of 3 times in my entire life and all 3 of those women are still on some level very special to my life's fabric. They all taught me something so very valuable about Loving women...You can't love every woman the same. I learned how to love a woman from a woman ,so naturally, i believed that i knew exactly how to love a woman. But, like most men in single parent homes ,i learned how to love the way my Mother wanted to be loved by a man. A large number of women don't want love at all, they want the all mighty Dick and Dollar. They believe that they can find love whenever. Then some women want just enough love to validate them spending every night and day with the same nigga and not out partying with their girl's. Finally there is the Woman that wants your every minute and second of the day and aren't even satisfied with that ,because there is something still missing . the missing element is often so small that it doesn't even register with us at all.We men always think bigger than we have to and do Less than we should ...mostly for the simple reason that we just found out about it during the argument. Most of all, women want to be loved ...the way they want to be loved .Not the way that you feel they should be loved. I know that now ,more than ever.
I remember when being pussy whipped very badly one summer of my life ...my first summer having sex. I wasn't whipped by just one girl...it was a combination whipping. They triple -teamed me (unknowingly of course) Ada Sheppard...Sonya Latimer...Terri Harris(28 at the time) had me fucked up badly and just like the Three women that i was in love with ,i learned a lot about myself that helped me grow as a man. I was so busy that summer Ada broke the seal on the container...not very good sex (she was more experienced than me )but there was a lot of it...Lakesho' Stand up! there were a couple of niggas hooked on that pussy, i fought for an entire summer trying to prove my love..lmao! Then there was Sonya ...(sigh) Sonya...Bad reputation and all, she was my boo. she was labelled a ho' by so many ,but in truth , I was her first. She was so Goddamn Beautiful to me and boy did we go at it...Rabbit Season like a muhfucka! I loved her ...I loved her Titties and Pussy..she was fine as hell naked..damn!! We had so many ups and downs over our relationship and the greatest up and down was Terrie Harris. Terrie was my older chick, Married and all...she would do anything i asked her to..and even some shit that i hadn't ever heard of before...damn!
I joined the Navy after High School and that's when the Real Shit began to happen. I was fucking on every continent and Caribbean Island on the map, just plain wilding out....then i got the Letter that even with all of my indiscretions ,broke my black ass down like a shotgun. The Dear John Letter...all of my Military niggas ,know what this is. I was devastated and to find out that it was my Best Friends brother was even tougher...i told this nigga to watch my girl for me and he watched her fuck instead..lmao..asshole! I love You Man!! LOL
I AwOl'd from the military for a while ..just to pull myself back together. I thought about killing that nigga and her ass..then i thought about it. I was cheating all over the world and here i am crying over her fucking one dude! Lame ! i chilled out and moved on with my life eventually...eeeeeevvvvveeeeeennnnntually(it took a while) i stalked her ass like crazy...fuck you , i was 19. When i finally moved on there were a plethora of women here and there...me and my cousin ran a Non-Profit Whorehouse in the 90's...we donated Dick to every Horny woman possible and then i met My Very First Truest Love... Wanda (Oh My God)...i would have married her the first day we met...she was a perfect ten , beautiful beyond words,and overall a very great woman...i blew it after a long relationship...I have regretted it every day since. More women came ,but none took the place of Wanda in my heart for a very long time. I loved a few more women after her and i was never really the same after losing her,but i moved on. My life had a few very forgetful relationships and i had a good one that went bad...i moved on from that one pretty quickly..moved away and then came back...then there was Jennifer(sigh) i couldn't explain what i loved so much about Jennifer, except in one statement..she walk out of my head into my life. She had what i was looking for in a woman and that is what i wanted in my life and world. I fell head over heels for her and i mean Fell hard...i will tell you , we had Chemistry like a muhfucka in the bedroom. I saw stars when i was with her and believe me ..we would do it anywhere. whenever the feeling arose...i had her p***y against my nose! Whooo...(I still gotta flashlight looking for her , wow)...i have so much more to tell you,but i must save it for next time! You must know why i am Mark Anthony...Stay Tuned
O Well! back to me and who i used to be ! I have honestly been in Love a Total of 3 times in my entire life and all 3 of those women are still on some level very special to my life's fabric. They all taught me something so very valuable about Loving women...You can't love every woman the same. I learned how to love a woman from a woman ,so naturally, i believed that i knew exactly how to love a woman. But, like most men in single parent homes ,i learned how to love the way my Mother wanted to be loved by a man. A large number of women don't want love at all, they want the all mighty Dick and Dollar. They believe that they can find love whenever. Then some women want just enough love to validate them spending every night and day with the same nigga and not out partying with their girl's. Finally there is the Woman that wants your every minute and second of the day and aren't even satisfied with that ,because there is something still missing . the missing element is often so small that it doesn't even register with us at all.We men always think bigger than we have to and do Less than we should ...mostly for the simple reason that we just found out about it during the argument. Most of all, women want to be loved ...the way they want to be loved .Not the way that you feel they should be loved. I know that now ,more than ever.
I remember when being pussy whipped very badly one summer of my life ...my first summer having sex. I wasn't whipped by just one girl...it was a combination whipping. They triple -teamed me (unknowingly of course) Ada Sheppard...Sonya Latimer...Terri Harris(28 at the time) had me fucked up badly and just like the Three women that i was in love with ,i learned a lot about myself that helped me grow as a man. I was so busy that summer Ada broke the seal on the container...not very good sex (she was more experienced than me )but there was a lot of it...Lakesho' Stand up! there were a couple of niggas hooked on that pussy, i fought for an entire summer trying to prove my love..lmao! Then there was Sonya ...(sigh) Sonya...Bad reputation and all, she was my boo. she was labelled a ho' by so many ,but in truth , I was her first. She was so Goddamn Beautiful to me and boy did we go at it...Rabbit Season like a muhfucka! I loved her ...I loved her Titties and Pussy..she was fine as hell naked..damn!! We had so many ups and downs over our relationship and the greatest up and down was Terrie Harris. Terrie was my older chick, Married and all...she would do anything i asked her to..and even some shit that i hadn't ever heard of before...damn!
I joined the Navy after High School and that's when the Real Shit began to happen. I was fucking on every continent and Caribbean Island on the map, just plain wilding out....then i got the Letter that even with all of my indiscretions ,broke my black ass down like a shotgun. The Dear John Letter...all of my Military niggas ,know what this is. I was devastated and to find out that it was my Best Friends brother was even tougher...i told this nigga to watch my girl for me and he watched her fuck instead..lmao..asshole! I love You Man!! LOL
I AwOl'd from the military for a while ..just to pull myself back together. I thought about killing that nigga and her ass..then i thought about it. I was cheating all over the world and here i am crying over her fucking one dude! Lame ! i chilled out and moved on with my life eventually...eeeeeevvvvveeeeeennnnntually(it took a while) i stalked her ass like crazy...fuck you , i was 19. When i finally moved on there were a plethora of women here and there...me and my cousin ran a Non-Profit Whorehouse in the 90's...we donated Dick to every Horny woman possible and then i met My Very First Truest Love... Wanda (Oh My God)...i would have married her the first day we met...she was a perfect ten , beautiful beyond words,and overall a very great woman...i blew it after a long relationship...I have regretted it every day since. More women came ,but none took the place of Wanda in my heart for a very long time. I loved a few more women after her and i was never really the same after losing her,but i moved on. My life had a few very forgetful relationships and i had a good one that went bad...i moved on from that one pretty quickly..moved away and then came back...then there was Jennifer(sigh) i couldn't explain what i loved so much about Jennifer, except in one statement..she walk out of my head into my life. She had what i was looking for in a woman and that is what i wanted in my life and world. I fell head over heels for her and i mean Fell hard...i will tell you , we had Chemistry like a muhfucka in the bedroom. I saw stars when i was with her and believe me ..we would do it anywhere. whenever the feeling arose...i had her p***y against my nose! Whooo...(I still gotta flashlight looking for her , wow)...i have so much more to tell you,but i must save it for next time! You must know why i am Mark Anthony...Stay Tuned
Wow!!!Nice story :-)
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